i cut my hair!: O
it turned out quite bad but!surprisingly i got over it quite fast!
like less than 2hours.
thats quite good already.
ithought it would be quite hard to destroy my hair la.cos i just ask her to cut shorted.
then when i asked her why the left side and the right side different one.then she insisted that they are the same and kept pulling my hair to my chin.she explained that the left side hair was more disobedient thats why.okay maybe.though i was D : i still forced out a smile when i was leaving.hmm.so warning here.dont laugh at my hair!
okay,and i think im giving up on nats(team)cos my mom say even if i fight i also wont win.which is quite true though i know she said that just to discourage me to dont go to comp so that i wont hurt my bone again.but really,its true lo.how can i win.i stopped training for a month already people.and sir always complain to us that people go on holiday before nats then when they come back still neeed a long time to get back their stamina and skills.so im like those people who are on holiday.i tried uchikumi yesterday.didnt turn out very well.i think i cant even throw a person properly now.tsk.and people will go 'madeline bu yao zuo liao'.iknow its becos they care but even my own teammates have no faith in me and that i might hurt myself again if i do it.how can i have that much faith which is require of me to go comp.somemore nats(team)is so important.i dont want the team to lose becos of me.plus sir wont/might not choose me as well.cos im not good enough compare to ___and ___ now.i know it la.hes afraid iwould break it again then he'll have to answer for it.so i think im giving up on this year nats(team).maybe next year/next next year lo!but!im not giving up on judo/nanyang judo heh!(ohmanxxzx ghimhwee said i looked as if i was possessed during pnw!: O ohmanxzxzx)and i train now not becos of comp!: D yay people!im giving up on nats!arent yall happy!: D trust me im really not emo now.
oh i think im giving up on xuexidangan as well!: D anyway i didnt promise laoshi that i will finish.: /
fantastic4 is nice!yeah agree with kelly!hot people!haha: D and blue eyessssssssss!
eh.i dont want to stab Your heart with a knife and pull it out and stab it in again and again Lord. ) : God can overlook my ignorance, God can overlook my lack of talents. But what He does not overlook is what i do with what i've got. Father, im ready to serve.
i called, You answered. and You came to my recus and i wanna be where You are. : D
oh!you know i prayed in front of my family!i mean before dinner. : D dont know i jsut feel really good!: D
okay,chalet.fun yet enriching!: D
haha.so short.but the coolest is i hide on the dinning table and people didnt find me!:D haha!
i love you