livejournal livejournal livejournal!
i love you
okay.im in school and am supposed to mug hist.
oh.lets not talk about it anymoreD :
and i hope __ wont talk to me too.
okat.anyway im really sorry that i was so boliao and go provoke(?) everybody around me.
and really sorry if i hurt youD:
and oh.
i didnt say that,dont put words in my mouth please
i didnt toy him as well.you can go ask him.
and from the start till the end daivd and i are (good) friends.
okay. no more.
byebye people.
hello hist(: /)
i love you
Saturday, July 28, 2007
thank you people:D
who stood up for me and and zealot!:D
i really didnt expect myself to break down in front of everybody.
but people thanks thanks thanks:D
esp bigfoot who came and talked to me.
:D im really glad that i came to church today and
yay!liangzhi thanks for your ribena(and kellys ribena!)!
Solution Hillsong united
It is not a human right
To stare not fight
While broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find
The Mercy for the need
Singin Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession
YeahIt is not too far a cry
To much to try
To help the least of these
Politics will not decide
If we should rise
And be your hands and feet
Singing Hey Now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey Now
As we hold to our confession
Woah-oh-oh,
God be the solution
Woah-oh-oh
We will be Your hands and be Your feet.
Yeah, yeah
Higher than a circumstance
Your promise stands
Your love for all to see
Higher than protest line and dollar signs
Your love is all we need
Only you can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
Erase complete the sinners past
And set the captives free
Only you can take the widows cry
And cause her heart to sing
Be a father to the fatherless
Our savior and our king
We will be your hands, we will be your feet
We will run this race
On the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light
We will be your hands , we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place, we will be your light
We will be your light
We will run
we will run
We will (run with the solution?) (2x)
We will be your hands we will be your feet
We will run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light
We will be your light
yeah,God be the solution.
i love you
im so glad that i went to church today and really.
thanks for everything: D
and i came home straight after church cos wanted to apologise for being so mean and venting my anger on him/they before i read the posts(which im going to annotate soon).
cos i didnt know its going to be that harsh.but nevermind.
im not pissed:D hooray!
.i cant blief i hav a sister lyk u in the name of Christ(i cant imgine you are actually a christian.and i dont think you have any different with the ohter nonbelievers.since you are a christian shouldnt you be like one.i dont know.but ask yourself do you read your bible everyday and listen to what God tries to tell you.do you go to church/i think you rather goout with your different gfs right.just reflect on what you have been doing.maybe im wrong cos i vented my anger on you.ya,and i wanted to apologise.(i know you dont give a damn buti thought i was wrong)and i find it super hard when God wants us to love one another.but anyway,the whole thing is,you are not showing that you are the salt and light of the world) . it seems that u juz wana be a christian due to certain unseeable reasons.(thats really offensive) i rly tried my best not to type this post but i guess God will forgive me since i do it once in a while(maybe you think God think that its perfectly fine.but i think thats what you think only.). well im nt sure if He will forgive smone who desperately wans to make enemies(stop talking about God,and i know my God loves me.).
i rly wanted to try making frens wiv u, since to God, forgiveness relieves sins(i dont even think you are behaving like a christian). i suppose that aint gona happen no more.(luckily)kelly will do a good job leading the ny team. but u? mayb u shud juz step down(sorry im going to do my best for nyjudo) i noe swearing adds on to my list of sins, but oh well..madeline ong. ur a bitch(oh man,thats just too bad.)
i dont even think you act like a christian.
i love you
Friday, July 27, 2007
i should have shut my big fat mouth and bang my head into the wall.
ya,even though we/i dont like it.i shouldnt bitch around.
but i wanted to shut my mouth just that i was(and a little am)too pissed la.
i never knew why seniors were so pissed about the election thingy last year.
and i was one of the brainless ones who just vote for someone that i ___.not considering what qualities a captain should have.(no wonder seniors were so pissed)
okay,i am starting to bitch again.tsk.
anyway we cant change anything and seniors voted as well.
so i just hope that we can just try our best for the club.
(i want ___(1)D; and ____(2) is on ____(3)'s side)
(its going to be so ironic heh,cap/vcap not in team.jzang.)
okay,even though this week is totally horrible.but theres still cool things that happened.
like i handed in my xuexidangan on time with the (muchmuch) help from penny and jiahui.
and i am so touched that penny knows my favourite colour!
jiahui thinks that my cousin treats her better than how i treat her.D :
i didnt know 402 is in the science block until today/didnt hear the 6pm announcement until today.
and i am happy to say that i passed my math.(but im going to fail today's science quiz)
second cool thing.i got a jumper at 26$ which was supposed to be 29$.and the coolest part of it is that i wanted to buy with jiemin at heeren that time at 39$ but i didnt in the end.so i got my jumper at 13$ cheaper!whoo.
third cool thing.the altering shop aunty knows my name.whoo.
oh,i forgot to collect jiemins jeans!: X
(fine,im at fault la.jzang it.shut up jzang.)
oh and if im goingto get that 30$ i am going to be the coolest person.hoo-ray.
damn it i feel banging my head into the jzanging wall now.after readingthe stupid post.
(credits to the secfours who came out with the word jzang)
i love you
Monday, July 09, 2007
i shall blog!: D
but i shall not stalk.
ohman i am too lazy to reply tags/testi.ohman,
i dont understand newton's 2nd law!
and the quiz today huh,i was stoning and almost fell asleep.
there are so many good things in life okay.we should all appreciate what we have got now.
okay,i havent do my math ws 6.1 wihich is due today.ahhhahaaha.
i cant do newaza.stupid.but at least i can do the standing thingy!woohoo!
ehh.i miss my mom.but shes back now!
i thought she will only be back tomorrow!
i realised i still cant read a clock properly.cos i tried to set my alarm clock and it rang at 430 instead of 530.=.=
oh and my saving plan failed(horribly terribly).shopped with jiemin and kelly after funfair with our red/blue/shiny hair.we got interview by these these people from dont know where.but it wont go onto the nats tv.haha.so you cant get to see us(with our ahlian hair).ahaha.okay nevermind.
i dont like romeo and juliet.cos they they are eh desperate and scary.they kiss and kiss like nobody's business la.so so so ehhhhhhh eeyeeer!and juliet doesnt look 14.(shit have do lit circle)
romeo is totally desperate.
nats is coming.like two more days!
mercury is coming!like this saturday.
iwant to know what is 1806072020!D :
oh and that shrek ears guy looks like david with hair more than junde with small eyes.
okay actually i dont know how junde looks like also.okay nevermind.
oh what.i have gotten my first encouragement card!: Dyay!yay!yay!yay!: D
(UNDERGROUND)so cool so cool!: D
ahhhahah.oh you know on sat i was in this random mood that that i started smsing everybody.: O
eh.i was telling jiemin David was the king cos she was boasting(?) about the book of Mark(?) in the Bible and then then then (ohman,i screamed too loud)
anyway i cant use ___ to call___ already.so anyway,they broke up.aw.
then what,my lesportsac is dirty.im so sad!jiemin got the pencil case!and we have the same animal shirt!whoo!i like nice blue!yay.
i have been eating weird stuff recently.(not worms not worms)
man,we are strugglingto decide to go for grad night a not.we were saying we shall go shop in orcard in shades and dress and haivianas!but but.we have to perform.D :
(stupid 5mths-4days.i suffered horribly)
okay what,i found my geog notes!(hooray)that one which amy made us stand and copy.i found it i found it!under my table.oh i lost my kebenxia.i have 2 aprons under my table too!hooray.
oh,cheryl was telling/reminding me of all the tests and dont know what.man,i feel guilty la.she study so much still say never study enough.then me leh!i havent finish my xuexidangan man!(i almost forgot about it already!)
okay fine.byebye.go nanyang/hwachong(only if david is fighting) judo.
i love you
Sunday, June 24, 2007
ohman!
okay.first thing.im traumatised.totally.i even had nightmare okay.then i told jiemin and she laughed at me.okay lo.but really.shit.
okay second thing.i got my justtea(can) at 45 cents!and its cold!cool right!faster ask me where i buy from one!
third thing.i read the lastest seventeen in popular!i didnt buy you know!man,im impressed by my cheapo lifestyle.
training camp.
okay,still couldnt do nagakumi.
cos i will lose balance then then cannot support myself with my right hand.
bbq.otah!150 otahs okay which cost me 46 bucks please.
my toungue got burned by fried chocolateD :
but it was niceeee.oishi.hahahhaha: D
(man,i found out the biggest news of hcny(happy chinese new year)haha okay maybe not)
but really im starting to despise him.okay or all along i have been despising him.
but really,then why did you do all those stuff to __ then changed target to__2. huhhuh huh.
whatever lo.
then oh.the cursed hc dojo(either one or two) and the cursed shiai.
D : poor ___.(in case theres r****** people out there trying to stalk us)
its like the last few seconds la.then this happened.i hope that it wont be serious lo.hmm.
D :
combined pt.
okay,h2o saved the day.
and the guys dont know were doing what lo.so slow.then in the end the video couldnt finish on time then i need to ask for ealier dismissal.sir was like what dongxi dongxi.i nanbei ar.D :
okay,finish.sling sling for ____.D :
ER.
was fun and impacting/ful.
i received tongues.(hooray!)
im just going to make it short.
saturday eh eh eh.
was really greatttt.i felt really good for the whole day okay.
: D teehee!
saw marcus beh in church!ohman!i totally high diao la!: D
jiemin thinks that pastor daniel is cute.
and bryantan has super cool hair.
oh and jiemin wore her geek specs to church:O
thenthen.oh icebreaker!planned by jiemine and madeline okay!
hohoho.
she thought of the game i thought up of the forfeit.hoho.
gatsuby gatsuby: D
okay then youbeng said it was good okay!wahahhaha.
and and
(wth my mom went to spread that i have bf.wth.dont have please i dont have i dont have!and she used to spread that i am a lesbian.whatever lo.dont have!)
jiemin.jiemin.(...)
heh you know ar.hahah :D
i need to do my om!tadatadatadatada.
okay what now.ermermermerm.
i like sleeping in my sleeping bag i like my lesportsac.
and i got 2nd for daozhuangju.
i could have won ghimhwee one lo!rawr.
and adn in the middle of the nght i woke up suddenly and figured out how to play around the world!teehee!: D
oh and i know who is mimi heh!: D
oh oh bible study today.
only me and yvonne came okay!ps us!
during lunch liangzhi was asking whether theres a math teacher called mr tan in my school.
then i was like huh tanchikleng is it.
then i started saying how we fall asleep in his class.and when i wanted to say mr tan wears graph paper shirts to school.liangzhi said something like actually i dont know him.
=.= tada.
dumdum2 kept saying i molest him=.= whatever.
okay i shall end.
and and people i have gotten myself a new phone!teehee!
hello world (says madeline's new phone): D
man,sorry if i scare you away.but im im just (...)whatever.
God i give my heart my life to You! : D
(pray for kelly!and and faith(if you know her)!)
i love you
Sunday, June 17, 2007
haha!zealot chalet!: D
1st day
erm.meet at bk.and almost everybody was late.hahah!
sandy got cheated by zealot one for like twice/trice!haha!: D
the chalet is veryvery ulu.yes just like pnglin's house.uluuuuu.
erm.played cards and nicole cant lie.haha.
then then session 1!or is it dinner first.
okay anything dinner.
played zhong ji mi ma!the funny soup with tissue/coke/chilli/hum/anything we cold find on the table.everybody zhonged la!and liangzhi saboed sandy!haha!: D
session 1!hmm Sense of Belonging by kenquak.(kenlim broke the bed!haha)
hmm.then hide and seek right!yay so funnn!i hide on the table and nobody found me!:D
i then i saved the world!haha.i mean i went to press the doorbell which i think is quite heroy of me.haha.then supper!didnt really see the thethe trans___(?).was quite disappointed(but the second day!)
eh.then dont know do what until 2 then go and sleep.
2nd day
woke up at 5 plus.xiadao when i saw nicole's phone cos it was 6.15 allready.but it was actually 5plus cos her phone is 20min early.=.= and i woke almost everybody up : / sorry people.
went training.liangzhi smsed when i was on the bus!he is damn sweet okay!he said he woke up early and wanted to make breakfast for me!but iwoke up too early/earlier than him.haha.but really!:D went training.was quite qiang cos i ran home from the mr station(its like last year when i rushed back from sixone chalet for grading!)then ran to bus stop from my house.hoho.
went back and reached at around 2/3pm.cant remember.but the place is damn ulu ulu ulu!
oh the bus uncle was nice!really nice!
when i got off the bus and the ulu chalet he stopped and let me jaywalk.then when i was in the middle of the road/in front of the bus we startedsignaling.haha.he was pointing at his arm.then i gave him the thumbup signal.then he smiled and did the same thing.then i waved to him and walked away.hahaha!but hes really nice la.saw qinching when i was walking back!then we went in together.watched cornerlove on alvin's labtop.the bed was sinking la!(becos becos!haha)then laingzhi brought me my lunch!:D oh.then i started feeling ichy all over so i went to bathe.afeter i bathe i went to sleep/kiss the wall(haha).then!when!i!woke!up!i cant open my eyes properly.and its zhong qi lai one!i thought is i sleep in that position for too long la.but.later i found mt whole body ichying(?) and my face zhong qi lai.so derek insisted that i ate pufferfish thats why.uhheh.then chatting/stoning in the room.didnt understand libin hidden sexual meaning jokes.hmm.dinner!pizza!zhong ji mi ma again!the pizza is stacked with a layerof chlli and another layer of cheese then another layer of pizza la.i tio lo!quite scary!hahaha!then session3!youbeng's Standing Firm.and bro rixiang added on.ithink hes really influential.and he really made me think.i realised how i broke my promise to my Father and and ya.most of us broke down.esp nicole darling.saw her crying and crying until her eyes were swollen la.D : and i gave my first hug to yvonne.(sorry kelly!but you got my 2nd!)
erm.then supper!i saw the the tran__(?) people!ohmanxzxzxzxz!and this one looked into the van and smile to me!me!me!me!then i really xia dao and damn i was really scared/scarred!: O then i ust grabbed weekiat's sleeve!ohmanxzxz!soscary!hmm.then went back.dont nkow do what.until i really cannot tahan then i went to sleep.and they say i was totally inside the bag la.i wonder how i breathe.but the good thing is.nicole didnt get to take my photo!: D
oh and they say nicole(who was sleeping at my right) and derek (who was sleeping at my left) snored until until dont know like what.but i didnt know!:D qiang right!:D
3rd day
liangzhi woke us up.oh and my zhonging thing on my face disappeared!: D
then ate four pieces of bread(: /)haha.
slept on the bus but woke up on the train.
strated writing namecards becos of kenquak.haha.
oh and kenquak is a japanese!: O no wonder he got small eyes!
then went to jp with youbeng ghimhwee nicole sandy
didnt get bible in the end : /
went home and.sleep.
hahhaha:D
ohmanxzxz training camp tmr!: O
havent pack yet!: O
training camppppppppppppppppppppppppppp!
okay.
and.erm.maybe im just being too sensitive but.erm.i will reflect on my behaviour.but.really.i dont have that intention at all!at all!hmm.
okay.byebye,and happy birthday eugene!:D
i love you
i cut my hair!: O
it turned out quite bad but!surprisingly i got over it quite fast!
like less than 2hours.
thats quite good already.
ithought it would be quite hard to destroy my hair la.cos i just ask her to cut shorted.
then when i asked her why the left side and the right side different one.then she insisted that they are the same and kept pulling my hair to my chin.she explained that the left side hair was more disobedient thats why.okay maybe.though i was D : i still forced out a smile when i was leaving.hmm.so warning here.dont laugh at my hair!
okay,and i think im giving up on nats(team)cos my mom say even if i fight i also wont win.which is quite true though i know she said that just to discourage me to dont go to comp so that i wont hurt my bone again.but really,its true lo.how can i win.i stopped training for a month already people.and sir always complain to us that people go on holiday before nats then when they come back still neeed a long time to get back their stamina and skills.so im like those people who are on holiday.i tried uchikumi yesterday.didnt turn out very well.i think i cant even throw a person properly now.tsk.and people will go 'madeline bu yao zuo liao'.iknow its becos they care but even my own teammates have no faith in me and that i might hurt myself again if i do it.how can i have that much faith which is require of me to go comp.somemore nats(team)is so important.i dont want the team to lose becos of me.plus sir wont/might not choose me as well.cos im not good enough compare to ___and ___ now.i know it la.hes afraid iwould break it again then he'll have to answer for it.so i think im giving up on this year nats(team).maybe next year/next next year lo!but!im not giving up on judo/nanyang judo heh!(ohmanxxzx ghimhwee said i looked as if i was possessed during pnw!: O ohmanxzxzx)and i train now not becos of comp!: D yay people!im giving up on nats!arent yall happy!: D trust me im really not emo now.
oh i think im giving up on xuexidangan as well!: D anyway i didnt promise laoshi that i will finish.: /
fantastic4 is nice!yeah agree with kelly!hot people!haha: D and blue eyessssssssss!
eh.i dont want to stab Your heart with a knife and pull it out and stab it in again and again Lord. ) : God can overlook my ignorance, God can overlook my lack of talents. But what He does not overlook is what i do with what i've got. Father, im ready to serve.
i called, You answered. and You came to my recus and i wanna be where You are. : D
oh!you know i prayed in front of my family!i mean before dinner. : D dont know i jsut feel really good!: D
okay,chalet.fun yet enriching!: D
haha.so short.but the coolest is i hide on the dinning table and people didnt find me!:D haha!
i love you
Monday, June 11, 2007
i love my lesportsac so much: D
♥haha,failed attempt to make the heart-with-a-tail-heart.
♥!
jiemin likes church!: D
hooray!
kelly is coming church next week!
http://aalteam.blogspot.com/
its super amusing okay!
ohmanxzx!i found out that theres this twit who is my friend!on the http://aalteam.blogspot.com/ blog!: O
oh maybe its not her.okay,
ithink im ahlianish!: O
but i cant write in twits!
okay,anyway i dont want to be twitish.
okay!
i i i i shouldnt say that nobody cares about how many mm my bone is protruding(cos its not really protruding already) and theres someone who cares about me!
: D
its only only until sermon then i realised He is always with me.
"Fear not for I am with you, I will never leave you nor forsake you. Let not your heart be troubled neither let it be afraid."
i actually forgot that He will be there for me and listen to what i say.
you know what happened!
jiemin is coming to church!
kelly is coming to church next week cos her tuition teacher is going overseas!
and and sir took ___out the team.
: O
Hes listening!
: D
and i can jump now!: D after 3weeks/1 month!: D
ohmanxzxzxzxzxz!: D
alvina is my jumpjump partner heh!: D hahah!
zealot chalet!: D
i forgot i forgot la!hmm.i cant stay for the all the days.
ohmanxzx tc is only talking to me when he has nobody to talk to.=.=
damn it.its very annoying when people just treat you like an extra.
and when i reply then he will dao.
like whats his problem la.okay so i asked him to shut up and go away which was quite Alan of me. : / tsk.
you are being Alan when you call your schoolmate just to say the girl walking beside him was ugly.
you are being Alan when you sms your (same) schoolmate just to say he is pathetic to have a judo girlfriend(which is the same cca as him) who is not pretty/is ugly.
you are being Alan when you post a comment saying 'maybe i should take judo as my 2nd cca so that my 6 pacs can become 10 pacs' or something like that.
it is Alan when people say 'he is like that one la'
so just dao Alan/someone with Alan element when he/she is being Alan.
yay.i make sense!: D
"People coin themselves nicknames because they don't think their original one is cute enough, or unique enough, or angmoh enough. For example, this girl called Sio Kan might find herself unsatisfied with her original name and decide to give herself a name like Hope or Destiny or Kimchi."
and chenying gives herself names like Rhen.
i love you